When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

What a beautiful sad song.

Love it. =(

What a boring life.

How's everybody after CNY?

Still chomping on that piece of ba-gua or counting your ang pao 'earnings'?

If you are, then you are seriously lagging behind. Well, at least behind me.

Cos I've already done all that.

Heehee.

Anyway...i dunno what's there to blog cos my life's as boring as can be, in fact it can't get any worse. No exciting outings... no fulfiling shoppings... no nothing.

Just staying at home, watching TV all day long, facebook-ing blah blah blah.

But I want to blog, cos it gives me an excuse not to start on any of my assignments.

I'm seriously slacking and laziness is becoming a pain-in-the-ass habit.

I'm too lazy to do anything.

Which is really a problem because I have tons to do.

Like going through my readings.

Like doing research for essays.

Like finding texts to analyse.

Like thinking of questions to interview a parent and a child.

Like drawing sketches for my printmaking mod.

Like finding students to teach tuition.

Like getting a new specs again cos my barely-6-months-old-Coach specs is literally causing my nose to collapse under the pressure.

Like getting a haircut.

O.M.G.

Seems like there's a huge list of stuff waiting for me to clear.

But hell. I have no motivation to get started!!!

All because I'm attached.

Oh I know what you're thinking.

Ya loh.

It's really a love-hate relationship between me and...

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...

...

...

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My TV (SCV is really a source of distraction).

Plus my DS Lite (i need to break that high score!).

Plus BeBe (she's too cute to ignore).

OMG.

Somebody please hit some sense into me!!!

I can't continue like this anymore!!!

HELP!!!!!

Happy Niu Year! MOOO~~~

Happy NIU Year!!! MOOOO~~

A brand new year for all the Chinese out there. Woots! =)

For me, every CNY is the same.

Chu xi is for reunion dinner, whereby we'll have BBQ steamboat!!! (the only thing I look forward to during CNY, other than ang paos! Hehs.)

And I bet food is what BeBe is looking forward to every year.

This year, her dinner comprised of fishballs, meatballs, a few pieces of veggie, crabstick, pork, chicken, fish and last but not least (everyone please go "AWWW"), a couple of sliced ABALONE!!!

Gawk.

And the best part is she didnt even appreciate the abalone can! She spat it out after a few bites cos apparently it was abit 'chewy' for her. Nevertheless, my mum sort of forced it down on her. Hehs.

After dinner, I opened a bottle of Icewine and in a matter of seconds, mum, bro and I emptied the whole contents into our stomach. Tsk tsk.

We spent chu yi at my ah ma's house, and I got to see some of my relatives whom I only get to see once a year. So sad hor? I guess everyone's busy with their own life and I'm glad there's CNY to gather everybody together.

This year, we attempted to take group photos, since almost all our family members were there.

These are my cousins, the number was not completed cos we're missing 7 more girls.

These are my cousins plus my bro. We're still missing.......3 guys.

It was a brave attempt to squeeze, I mean, gather, everyone together on the teeny weeny staircase which must have been bigger 10 years ago as compared to now.

Two new soon-to-be family members. Find them.

End of phototaking session.

At my waipo's house...

My cousin...

The three generations united!!! Sweet.

A very different CNY indeed.

Looking forward to the next one; can't wait to see how much everyone has changed or does not changed.

But I'm definitely not looking forward to school tmr.

=(

Exposed.

Exposed.

Sometimes I feel like closing down this blog and start a brand new one which people I know (or dunno) have no access to. The main reason being that I dun want my life to be too exposed to the human race. On a second thought... is that so?

Or is it because I dun have to consider the feelings of others or worry if my words will offend/hurt/upset them when writing about some stuff (or writing about how I really feel or what I really think)?

It's quite scary to think of the kind of people (well, apart from my regular readers who happen to my friends) who will visit my blog, read all about it, and get a peek into what's happening in my life.

Maybe you'd think that I should not disclose too detailed accounts if I want to keep a low and private profile of my life.

But then again, isn't that a blog exist to function?

Why keep a blog if you can't write about the happenings (exciting or not) in your life, or rather, your inner thoughts/voices?

I think the main reason is because I care too much about others' opinions and worry too much about not hurting their feelings to the best of my ability, so much so that I neglect mine.

I'm tired of keeping everything to myself and not being able to let them all out in case somebody gets wind of it and ends up getting hurt.

Not that I'm always bad-mouthing people (unless they really really really piss me off!).

I just...dun want people to know too much about me.

So.

I'll still keep this up and running because I can't bear to delete all my hard work (the time spent uploading all those photos!).

But it's time to stop myself from being too exposed to the outside world.

=)

SLC retreat

Just came back home from my cca's retreat at a Changi chalet. It was meant to be a gathering for the members, and also for the YEP teams to share their experiences during the December trip.

I turned up to show 'face', and more importantly, I wanna see how the Thailand team is going to present during the sharing session.

In short, I felt like puking my breakfast and lunch when the so-called co-leader went up and did the show. And, in my humble opinion, made a fool of himself at the same time.

First, it was superduper brief because it was just touch-and-go (whereas other teams REALLY shared their experiences).

Second, it was done half-heartedly, from the way he talked. Almost like he couldnt be bothered.

If he couldnt be bothered, then why not let others, like my friend who spent over $100 to develop the photos (for her personal keepsake, may I add) and who knew the exact events that happened to present???

At the very least, it will be more engaging and truly a 'sharing session', rather than the opposite.

Oh.

Dun get me started on how he managed to get hold of the photos.

Let's just say basic courtesy to ask for permission from the rightful owner is not always important to some people.

Anyway.

The retreat was good because I get to learn about others' trips to Yuksam and Cambodia.

But seriously, apart from that, I think I've wasted my time going there.

First. I see people that I dun like/respect (read: you-know-who).

Second. I can't meet up with Gossipy to eat Thai food.

Third. Refer to the above two points.

Anyhow, if this year's YEP team to Chiangmai is going to be led by the same people, and if you're interested in going (seriously, I'm not discouraging you from participating the project because the kids will make the whole trip worthwhile, even if it's sucky), I'll pray hard that you will not go through what we went through last year.

But if you're a pretty or cute or knows how to act cute person (preferably girl), and is an easy target to be brainwashed, plus you enjoy ostracising people, sow discord, and among other traits like selfish, immature, alcoholic and clueless about effective communication and interpersonal relationships, then I dun think there is any issue for you to fret over with.

Since I dun fall into any of the above mentioned categories, I'll most probably be going on my own. =)

I hope the June trip is still on!!!

Meanwhile, I'll stay contented because I have this!

It's totally handmade by me, myself and I, and it costs me a bomb just to buy the crystals.

But the effect is totally what I want: shiny and shining rainbow!

I'm so proud of myself that I can't stand it. =)

This and six other coloured photo frames are going up on my Wall of Memories later, once I've decided which wall that would be. *hehs*

Meanwhile, I'll sleep on it first.

Good night everyone! =)

First Week of School.

Year 2 Sem 2.

It is just the first week of school, and I can feel the workload piling up already. -_____-"""

Lots of readings to complete, and assignments are getting tougher.

And competition is soaring, like, soooo disgustingly high.

What do I mean by that?

Let's see...

By the end of the first day of the first week of sem, books that lecturers recommended were ALL ON LOAN (wah biang. What can they do with those books on just the first day???). Like, seriously.

By the end of the first day of the first week of sem, I see people borrow ALL THE BOOKS under the recommended reading list just so they can start on their essay.

Oh great.

School's soooo much fun now; I simply adore all the competition and I-have-all-the-books-lalalalalala sickness.

Oh, how much I love school. *full of sarcasm*

*** *** ***

Met up with the sub-dean to see if I can change my major to History and minor to English.

I wanted the switch because I feel that I could do better in History, at least, that's what my results said. But really, my results for both subjects are pretty equal, so it all depends on my interests.

But then again, my interests still lie in English, but the assignments and all are much harder to cope than that of History.

And I like my History mates! (although some of them can be quite irritating at times, but I still like them! Hehs.)

Anyway, the sub-dean feels that it doesnt matter if I switch my AS (= academic subject) now or later, so she suggests to wait til end of this sem after I receive my results before I submit my request to MOE.

All the better, I feel.

It gives me more time to think clearly what I really want.

Because I'm still not sure.

URGH!

Can't I be more decisive?!?!

*** *** ***

Enough of school.

Went to Giant Tampines just now with my mum.

And I witnessed an incident so ridiculous that if it were to happen to me, I'd surely snapped at the person. Like, *roar*.

We were waiting in line at the cashier, and in front of us was this pregnant lady with all her purchases, one of which was a pomelo.

The cashier was a middle-age Malay lady and her helper, also a middle-age but Indian lady.

So the Malay lady was scanning the pregnant lady's items one by one, until the last item: pomelo.

And then the ridiculous thing happened.

Cashier to Customer, holding up the pomelo: "Do you know the price of this?"

Customer shook her head.

Cashier hesitated a bit, then said: "You dunno? I not sure also..."

Silence.

(Apparently the pregnant lady was waiting for the cashier to think of a way, which obviously was to find out from her other colleagues for the price. But apparently, the cashier was clueless. So was her helper. They just stood there and flipped through a book which contains all the barcodes for them to scan the prices of other items. And apparently again, they couldnt locate the correct barcode for the pomelo).

Guess what's her solution?

Cashier, still holding the pomelo: "I dunno how much. Can you not buy this, huh? I dun scan this, okie? You just pay the rest?"

I saw the sian ji bua look on the pregnant lady's face, and I was secretly hoping she would create a scene out of it, cos that's what I would do mah!

But sadly, she kept silent and really just resigned to her bad luck for queueing at the fateful counter. (I think she's trying to remain composed and not lose any anger in case her baby is affected.)

So taking advantage of 'silence means consent', the cashier totalled up the bill.

?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?

I was, like, shocked at this sight that was happening before my very eyes.

I mean, it's not the customer's fault that she doesnt know the price of the pomelo, or any other stuff, because that's not her job to memorise the price of every single stuff she bought. The customers are not being paid by Giant Supermarket to do that, are they?

But cashiers are paid to do just that, right?!?!

And it's not like you dun have any help. You've got the freaking barcode book, so just flip through it and look for the right one lah! And oh, I suppose you forgot you've got a helper as well?

How can you force the customer NOT to buy what they wanted to buy in the first place just because you dunno the price???

Is this ridiculous or ridiculous?

And what if the pomelo is important to the pregnant lady? But I dun think I want to dwell into that.

So with the bo bian look, the mother-to-be made her payment.

Meanwhile, I think the helper was suddenly enlightened or something, because she went to the other counters to check out the price of the pomelo.

She then came back to the cashier and began flipping to the last few pages of the book and viola!

The actual barcode finally came to light.

And then, without checking with the pregnant lady if she still wants the pomelo, the cashier simply scanned in the barcode and asked for payment.

*TSK TSK TSK*

Can you believe the nerve of that cashier?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Poor Customer. Being controlled by the clueless cashier.

And poor pomelo. Being tossed here and there.

If I were the customer, I'd pretend I really want and desperately need the pomelo, and demand the cashier to find out the price for me.

And when she does, I'd tell her I've changed my mind about buying the pomelo because all the waiting has made me lose my appetite for it. I'd then turned on my heels and stalked off, chest out and head in the high. And before I leave, I'd made sure to 'tsk' her and give her the 'blackest' face I could muster.

This is not being mean or rude to another human being, but I think it is a good way to knock some sense into that kind of people.

At the very least, she'd remember the price of a pomelo, and her next customer who is paying for a pomelo will not go through the same thing again.

I hope.

Okie.

Time to do tutorial for tomorrow. My only one-hour lesson that begins at 8.30AM on Friday.

What a nice timetable I've got. *shakes head*

My First MTV in 2009...

My First MTV in 2009...

MUAHAHAHAHHH!!!

I did an adorable MTV with my dearies from Gossipy last year 2008. We focused the theme on CNY, and it was a no-budget production. But we did it beautifully and artistically. Or rather, lustylester did it beautifully and artistically. Making videos is his forte. =)

Anyway, this time round, I did a very meaningful and fun video with 5 lovely ladies from Project HUH 2. I should be more specific in case some of you mistaken the other girls from the same team (which was pathetically disunited).

The 5 lovely ladies are...

Oh wells.

You'll know it when you see it. *hehs*

So enjoy! =)

Many many thanks to KL who did such a sweet and brilliant job of all the post-production work. Xing ku ni le!!! =)

HAPPY 2009!!! =)

HAPPY 2009!!! =)

Oh wells.

Another year has passed and it feels like time is not going to wait for anyone!

Just in case you're interested to know...

I didnt go for any NYE party or squeeze with 10,000+ strangers at some place to usher in the new year.

Totally not in the 'counting down' mode.

In fact, I spent NYE watching TV and kajiao-ing BeBe at home with mummy.

Very peaceful and very much comfortable relaxing in the couch than rushing to catch the last train home or something.

And it's just what I needed.

I needed some time to myself.

To think and to reflect.

Or more likely, to indulge in reminiscence of the time spent in Chiangmai.

*HAH!*

That's right, I'm still in the CM-mode. *hehs*

Anyhow, school's starting nx mon and my timetable is terrible.

Long hours of break in between lessons.

3 out of 5 days will begin with 830am lectures.

And my Wednesdays will end at 830pm.

So well done, huh.

*sigh*

And something's wrong with my health.

My right arm is sore and aching. My right hand is in mild numbness. And occassionally I'll have a slight migraine at my right temple. And this has been going on since Saturday.

Scary.

It's all happening to the right side of my body.

Symptoms of stroke?!?

Or signs of black magic?!?! (since I just came back from Thailand.)

I dunno.

Just hope that the soreness and numbness will disappear soon soon soon!

Before I end, I would like to let you know that....

CATS ARE EVIL CREATURES!!!

One stupid cat (and mind you, someone decided to raise it but let it wander about downstairs without even bothering to keep an eye on it!) bullied my BeBe while I was walking her can!

The small bully actually sneaked up on the big victim, pounced upon her and scratched her!

*%&$(#&%&!!!!!!

I was sooooo shocked cos it happened so quickly and I let out a scream.

Bloody hell.

Can't believe I screamed in the middle of the night when the atmosphere was so dead still and silent. *tsk tsk*

And poor BeBe.

She got a fright and headed straight for the lift.

Dunno if she's panting from the run or trembling from the bullying.

The moral of the story?

CATS ARE EVIL. Period.